Spontaneity and me!!

โ€‹We have all created preconceived beliefs for ourselves.

We have to act in a certain manner, look in a certain manner and especially behave in a proper manner.

Once we have decided it for ourselves it takes alot of courage or boldness to change it. A few are really bold and appreciate it. They embrace it with pride and the others like me think alot before taking the big step.

Haircut is never a big deal. It is just a matter of time that it grows back.But ask a person who has grown it for 17 years and tried real hard to maintain it. Suggest them to get it cut. Some bold people will readily agree to it if they feel like doing it while  others consist of people like me.

I weighed the possibility for a long time.(longgg time, yes for a damn haircut.it was thought over and over again)

Yes, it may seem silly to some. IT IS A BIG DEAL for me.

To go through the whole idea I.e. execute it I had to make a spontaneous decision.

Act on it asap

Not giving it another thought after I came up with the idea that evening. All my thoughts were moving rapidly and trying hard to pull me towards the opposite side..away from salon..away from insanity. Yet somehow that day I found myself walking properly on the ground and not even giving up on it.

It had to happen.

And I had to go through it

Not that it was a big deal but it was a change that would help me grow. Understand myself and that eventhough change is constant it is not always bad.

It passes by.

Even If it was a good change it will pass and if it was a bad one it will also come to an end. The only difference is that one memory will be treasured and the other will be deleted from our hard drive.(seriously, brain is such an amazing part it has the capacity to delete the not so required memory and stores what is useful)

So I went ahead and got it done. It is a Bob cut now my hair is above my neck line and yes I survived it. I am happy for this small achievement of mine. It gave me confidence that I will grow out of any change that will be coming towards me. The storm will calm down and I will be unhurt or even if I am hurt I will not be disheveled by it.

 Grow out of it.. ( I did sulk about it for a short while but then I decided to embrace it as it is)๐Ÿ˜

 #foodtomytrentchedsoul#stupidme#sillythoughts

Break: from an unplanned situation๐Ÿ˜…

โ€‹What makes you happy?

What is your few minutes get away from a daily tight schedule.

I read an article regarding the same and the writer had explained each of her favourite get away leisurely and exhaustively.(atleast it was much more detailed so yeah I consider it exhaustive enough)

I was wondering what can be considered as my “kit-kat break”. It led me to ponder about the same for a while before I could decide certain habits of mine that provide solace to my sometimes going too much over the top kind of life.

The article provided some food to my thoughts while lasted for a long time.( Believe me thinking about a specific thing for a while is equivalent to investing alot of time into thinking which is tiring๐Ÿ˜œ)

 So here I was thinking about the specific tasks that have to be undertaken by me to have a smooth day ahead of me when the start wasn’t so cool. Especially when it is related to me. My spontaneity makes me pay much more than what I bargained for. I react to it without thinking,make it worse and then cry about it. In the end I work out what I really need to do. So a person like me is in dire need of this get away ideas.

The first and foremost of it is I guess Ice cream. My all time favourite.Even if I m sad or things go haywire I feel that an ice cream can solve it. I love ice cream its the only thing that I have  proper sweet tooth for. It is the remedy for my heart aches that are generally caused due to my exam going not as planned, friends,internship or anything and everything.
Other than that I guess I can spend time with my pet, fluffy. He has grown along with me for the past 12 years. So, he knows when I am sad and whenever he feels I am sad he is there. Dogs are really humans best friend. He is an amazing companion especially during these moments.

Or I guess I can even go on a crazy binge watching session of any funny show or a romantic one(die hard romantic, my friend introduced me to anime world so those work for me as well๐Ÿ˜œ). I usually watch thr whole series in a go or try my best to complete it asap. I even have a huge crush on the main lead and as always they never ever disappoint you.(since one of my criteria while watching them also stresses on the fact of them being Good looking. It is for most of the movies not all though๐Ÿ˜)

Other than that i can even sketch or paint any painting that seems good or atleast try to paint it. (Even if my day sucked.i don’t know how but I get  this immense patience from out of nowhere specially when it is related to sketching. Not that am a professional but I feel am good enough)

Last but not the least I have the capability of  sleeping it off. ๐Ÿ˜‚

I realised my few day makers. my first aid service in case of an unplanned unbelievable day.

So what do u think is your favourite activity when you are in need of a much needed break

III Days III Quotes Challenge #Day1

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Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!๐Ÿ˜€

NOMINATED AGAIN.. ๐Ÿ˜›

Deboleena is an amazing blogger andย her creative skills just never stop impressing me. Deboleena Biswas is ย <3. Check her out.

The kind soul who keeps me engaged every now and helps me be a part of ย the blogging world(taking time from the college life..phew it was tiring) and always nominate me into writing things.

Semester came to an end and here I got a glimpse of hope when she tagged me again to be a part of yet again an amazing challenge. I hope you all like it and feel free to write about it. I have universally tagged you(if there is something like that):p

So the ย III Quotes challenge. Here we go…… ๐Ÿ˜›

THE RULES( EVER CONSTANT NEED OF US HUMANS TO BE GOVERNED BY IT)ย :

  1. Three quote for three days.
  2. Three nominees each day (no repetition).
  3. Thank the person who nominated you.
  4. Inform the nominees.

The first quote for my first day is from a poem :

“If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss”

-IF by Robert Forst.

As per rules I now need to nominate 3 bloggers.

https://greenpeacewordpresscomblog.wordpress.com/

https://breathingpark.wordpress.com/

https://crosgear.wordpress.com/

This quote gives me a lot of courage and motivation. The whole poem is amazing. I suggest all of you must take some of your time out and read it. It gives you the desire to walk forward unnerved by whatever situation that you may face.

Here is the link:ย http://www.businessballs.com/ifpoemrudyardkipling.htm

For your convenience. Please read the poem. It is amazing โค

 

Dwelling into my emotions๐Ÿ˜

โ€‹Fear

Scared

Hesitant

Belief

Trust

All these words hold different meanings in each of our lives. Some fight it off by dozing of into a slumber, some by gaming it out and the rest like me we are the kind who repeat it. We go in circles and circles till we get what we achieve. For me it has been this way. I screwed up sometimes and sometimes I achieved things. The only constant throughout it was all these factors that engulfed within me and made me me. I may sound weird. It may not make sense. But this fear that makes me continue makes me feel strong and yet it makes me walk a road I know with a fear in the back of my mind. I hesitate about everything. I do. I am proud of it and yet I m scared about it. An exam that we have been repeatedly subjected to can still make me go all blank and Shiver with fear. What is the worst that can happen at this moment? I will flunk. I will be flunking end of it. So what?  Why have I associated it with something and consider it to be the worst. I have my fear of flunking becuz I fear I won’t get up. I will not be able to be what I wish to be in this competitive world cuz once Il fall no matter the no. Of people who r there to pick me up I myself won’t be able to get up. Thats what I believe and that’s what I fear.