Auditorium

She wore her smile on her face.

She has got a habit of doing that. But, since I am her closest friend. It was obvious to me as I could notice the minute details of her movement. I was looking at her along with the whole crowd who also happened to be cheering and shouting their lungs out and give them confidence. My friend was there at the center of that stage in the auditorium and grabbing the mic, with slightly much more strength than required. Her nervousness was evident to me just me. She was fidgeting, her hand moments were much more than usual and she was pumped with energy well excitement. She was smiling and laughing. Yet her actions gave everything away at least to me it did.

Her face had turned rosy as the music started and the cheers just seemed to have grown louder. She started blushing with the mic still on her hand. Her face with that foundation had a crease of swept on it and her lips which were covered with a layer of pink quivered a little just before she began to bring the life into the music.

The crowd grew silent as her mesmerizing voice spread in the atmosphere. Her angelic voice made them cheer a lot louder than before. I loved the fact that she was appreciated. It was the moment that made me realize as to how proud I was of her accomplishments.

You all may be wondering why the hell am I sharing all this with you. Well, it’s just that when you feel blissful. you wish to share your happiness.

I just loved the fact that she was appreciated. It was the moment that made me realize as to how proud I was of her accomplishments.

She is the ray of calmness that I hold dearly in my life. As she is another sister that I have from just another unrelated but closely related family.

via Daily Prompt: Pink

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My take on the series: 13 reasons why 

We all have been happy, crazy, stupid and depressed during our high school years or college life. A few of us were the bullies while the others were bullied. I, myself have been critical while making friends. I won’t categories myself as a bully but at the same time I didn’t do anything when someone was bullied.

“You don’t know what goes on in anyone’s life but your own. And when you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re not messing with just that part. Unfortunately, you can’t be that precise and selective. When you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re messing with their entire life. Everything. . . affects everything.”

13 reasons why is one such story of a girl who was bullied in her school life in such a manner that she ended up committing suicide. Well, those who haven’t seen it yet and are planning to do so. I better warn you that you may stop reading here itself as this post would be having a few major spoilers. This Netflix series is dynamic in itself.

13 reasons why is a gripping series wherein the ways in which the13 individuals who contributed to the death of Hannah Baker had been explained. 

Its first episode gives away the plot of the story I.e. death of Hannah Baker. After that, the whole series takes us to a flashback ride through each cassatte explaining how each such contributor has caused the death of Hannah and wherein all the contributing factors are explained.

It is a story which leaves a mark on all of our minds. It showcases how a small rumour can take a toll on someone’s life. 

What is your opinion? Do you think she killed herself just because of mere bullying.

Well, I would like to correct myself as the term “mere” that is preceding bullying should not be used in this position.

Bullying itself carries a huge burdensome connotation that no one can belittle it by using a term like mere. I, myself  don’t hold such a power to categorise it in any manner.

But, being bullied is sad. No one deserves it. People who fight it off are true legends. I guess many of you may agree, Hannah Baker was not only bullied, she was scarred by witnessing a rape and subsequently being raped by a guy (acts of sexual assault). 

It is a story of how emotionally drained Hannah had become in her life and how the rape was her last breaking point.
Any sane individual would have gone into depression by witnessing such rape, bullying and lastly even believing that the death of one of the school mate Jeff was due to their own fault( for those of you who don’t know: the stop sign on a cross road falls due to the car in which Jenny (driving the car) and Hannah are seated.  Due to the fall of the stop sign, Jeff has a road accident and dies.)

Well, who won’t be scared by all of this and that too in Such a short time. Personally I would have been too. Scarred and scared to death. In Hannah’s case it was quite literally scared to death.

 When we think about it. Isint it terrifying to see that in today’s world people have an opinion such as she was asking for it or she didn’t say no clearly so I assumed a yes.

Well, for those of you who aren’t aware, a girl may not say no clearly but you can’t consider it consensual until unless a clear yes is given to you. 

Hannah Baker was a fighter. She couldn’t tell the name of the guy who did it to her councellor but she did explain him in clear words what amounted to a rape. But, the councellor was not that efficient in making her comfortable and at ease. Atleast in a manner which would have eventually saved her. Those who you thinking,yes the councellor was also on these tapes.🤔

She was isolated by these people. She was looked down upon and targetted. Her pictures were circulated and she was slut shammed (Bryce, his group members,so called student council president). Yet, she went through it all. She was a true fighter. She didn’t give up her friendship with Alex or Jessica. Even when they had given up. She always tried to protect them and cared about them truly.

She cared about Courtney too. But, it was too much when Courtney lied in order to protect herself Coming out of her closet. It was mean and rude.it was like trying to push someone else under the bus to save oneself.

 As I proceeded with the tapes I.e. the episodes I got much more intrigued, I hated the fact that, Justin(who happened to be Hannah’s first kiss and first crush; later on eventually becomes Jessica’s boyfriend and genuinely likes Jessica; happens to be Bryce’s friend and dependent on him since long) lied to his own girlfriend, jessica about how consensual the whole act was with Jessica at her party and how she wasn’t raped.

Not only that, Hannah was raped by the very same guy, Bryce. He thought highly of himself. He had to be punished for the wrongs that he did.

I liked Hannah’s mom’s character portrayal. It is so real and logical. He histerical actions were so true and hear touching that the viewer could feel the pain too. 

Lastly, the character I left to explain for the last is Tony. He wasn’t on the tapes, yet his character is the most special one. He kept his words and well, yes anyone of them could have saved her if they had given her a helping hand before it was too late.

The story showcases real life problems and how there is a need to address them.The whole series is slightly dark but it is the bitter truth that we are all witnessing in our world. In some countries it is not this brutal but in many other countries there is no set bar to such an act.

I personally feel that there is a need of sensitising the public about this issue. I got impressed with the story telling and the plot of it.

 But, in the end I seriously wished that Hannah Baker would have came back from the dead in any plausible manner or through magic. Whatever could have worked there. 

Before taking my leave, I would like to share the most lovely line of the series that got me all weepy, when Hannah had said:

” Clay your name doesn’t belong to be on this list. You are good and kind and decent and I didn’t deserve to be with someone like you.” 

Yeah…So guys..

 what is your opinion about this series? Do you all agree with me or not. If not,what is your opinion about the series.😘😂

Me, memory and my future

The amazing aspect of memory is its ability to over write. Life teaches you so many things and memory helps you to dig the ground n bury it away. It sometimes takes a day, a month or even an year. The amazing ability of us to forget is crazy. With each passage of day we can either be stuck at the very moment in which we got hurt or just buckle up and fight for the coming days. 

It may be an incident related to your private life or your professional one. But, what I have learnt is that we can never give up. As the next moment may turn out to be a knocking opportunity that you have been looking for the whole while. 

I have been busy for a past few days. Busy in giving myself way too importance. Actually, it was not just me but people around me too. I gave them way too importance. So much so that I had to decipher what their ulterior motives were for a petty act as well. I have stopped doing that.

  It has taken immense amount of courage from my side or stupidity to realise that I am just a person out of crores living out there and I have a long way to go before people give me enough importance that I thought I could be associated with and till then I have to work upon myself and then only I can have a responsibility towards myself in understanding how I will be coping with it when I will be that much important. 

P.s. a goal for myself: I will work hard to be an important figure.

Patience

Tick tock tick tock..the time just makes you feel it’s presence all the time. Each moment since I have been assigned to participate for my competition, it has been a struggle for me. 

I love being a leader but at the same time, it can be exhilarating. Believe me I am not kidding when I say this. It can be torturous but the only solace that I can find in its relation is that I have not got any dumb partners. Yes, it is a team working together and participating competition but it is annoying. Ironically I never chose the role that I have been playing for a while now. I am good believe me I am. Given that I was able to make some laid back souls to work on it and get a result within the stipulated time limit but the knowledge of not choosing the part voluntarily kills me. I expected more of a middle man role wherein I was having a supportive role.

 But since, history has a tendency to repeat itself. This time in the competition I again have to work for the issues I didn’t sign up for. I say am not cribbing but I am cribbing because I have stopped understanding the meaning of work ethics, responsibility and team spirit. 

Expecting perfection and achieving it are two separate concepts. It will be a while before I can attain the same. But, sometimes sadly transparency cannot help you to achieve the same. This time also we may not be able to win the best written submission for my competition but all I will ever feel bad about is having the resources and yet not utilising to its utmost capabilities.

 I hope that we do well but that must even include walking upto the position wherein improvement is visible in each one of us rather than concentration of work on one individual in place of it we must learn the concept of division of labour and lastly, timely efficiency is what I wish each one of us can possess in our lives.

Puppy <3

Hey! It has been too long since my last post. How have you all been?….I missed not posting anything here. But, I guess I have got the best story that I can share proudly with you all and I hope that it is relatable to most of you too…:) So the story of how the day unfolded wherein the important happening started in this manner:

I bunked my class(college),i.e. my last lecture of the day just before my presentation to have fun with friends. But, just as I was about to reach the park near my college I saw this cute puppy. He was too young to survive the cold temperature of Delhi and it literally broke my heart to leave him stranded to death.

I luckily had enough time to take him to a friend’s place and leave him there for the time being and thankfully my friend and his friends were intelligent enough to get puppy some warm clothes and make a small bed for him out of a shoe box .when the puppy started shivering. I rushed back to his place as soon as my presentation was done and was more than happy to see my puppy all cuddled up and sleeping like a log in his newly made bed. Since it was a temporary home, I just couldn’t extend my friends favor more than I should have and therefore, I started looking for shelter homes for the puppy.

I had to take him to a shelter home. He was too young and needed a home. Sadly, I could not take him to my place because of my own pet and his insecurities to have a companion.( Fluffy is very nice and sweet but a little possessive)  So I asked for help from literally everyone i.e. the people I talk to on a daily basis and people who I have never ever spoken to. But sadly most of them were either busy or not that helpful. So, I and my friend tried to find him a home in a nearby shelter for pets.

With the help of my friends, I  got a cab till the shelter home.

The whole ride he (the puppy) slept in my arms and I finally dropped him off at the shelter home. He instantly made friends there. All other dogs and puppies seemed to have liked him and accepted him with such a kind heart that I was almost in tears. He became friends with each one of them.

I knew him for just a short while but the puppy was very nice. I did not wish to leave him at all. He was an angel that too a very cute one.

🙂

What I want😂

​What do I want

I want prosperity not only for myself but everyone around me

I want to have positive aura engulfing me always

I want sadness as something that can be defeated with ease

I want people to believe in sweetness, have some faith in others, to fall without a fear of anything

I want to have the smile that oozes out the happiness I feel in my heart

I want to believe the world is beautiful

I want to see a society which is amazing in itself and not rude or changing themselves just because some other person has hurt them

I want to believe that my belief is in not wavered

But what I want the most is to see a smile on all those faces I have got carved inside my heart even if it is on the expense of my happiness 

Since my happiness won’t ever be less by their success

I want to see this small world within the world to be happy and spread prosperity.

Merry Christmas everyone

I wish the same for you all.

My wants will be happy to receive a few of your additions to be added in these list as well 😘😘😅😅😁

#dadisthebest#crazy#stupid#me

Alot more than just an acquaintance

​😮

Friends care..they are there when you need them and they are there when you haven’t even voiced out that they are needed. 

I have always been in a protective shell and never really felt lonely or sad. I had the benefit of living a life where my family and friends surrounded me always. So, yeah as weird as it may seem. I after these many years of living am experiencing a life where you have to enjoy ones own company. I was bored the first two days indulging in WhatsApp and looking out to talk to people.(irrespective of who they were) 

Some of my friends who I have grown close these past months and who have known me for a while asked me about how I have been and I shared what I felt but what amazes me is as to how sweet  friends can be.

One planned to come to my place, other dropped in without even a proper notice,   another one has got snacks for me and another got me an app which gives you discount on food.(yeah,I can be considered as technologically handicapped person)

So these people who I always thought that I am their pillar proved me wrong by showing how dependent I am on them.

I really adore you people

Love, me😝

Spontaneity and me!!

​We have all created preconceived beliefs for ourselves.

We have to act in a certain manner, look in a certain manner and especially behave in a proper manner.

Once we have decided it for ourselves it takes alot of courage or boldness to change it. A few are really bold and appreciate it. They embrace it with pride and the others like me think alot before taking the big step.

Haircut is never a big deal. It is just a matter of time that it grows back.But ask a person who has grown it for 17 years and tried real hard to maintain it. Suggest them to get it cut. Some bold people will readily agree to it if they feel like doing it while  others consist of people like me.

I weighed the possibility for a long time.(longgg time, yes for a damn haircut.it was thought over and over again)

Yes, it may seem silly to some. IT IS A BIG DEAL for me.

To go through the whole idea I.e. execute it I had to make a spontaneous decision.

Act on it asap

Not giving it another thought after I came up with the idea that evening. All my thoughts were moving rapidly and trying hard to pull me towards the opposite side..away from salon..away from insanity. Yet somehow that day I found myself walking properly on the ground and not even giving up on it.

It had to happen.

And I had to go through it

Not that it was a big deal but it was a change that would help me grow. Understand myself and that eventhough change is constant it is not always bad.

It passes by.

Even If it was a good change it will pass and if it was a bad one it will also come to an end. The only difference is that one memory will be treasured and the other will be deleted from our hard drive.(seriously, brain is such an amazing part it has the capacity to delete the not so required memory and stores what is useful)

So I went ahead and got it done. It is a Bob cut now my hair is above my neck line and yes I survived it. I am happy for this small achievement of mine. It gave me confidence that I will grow out of any change that will be coming towards me. The storm will calm down and I will be unhurt or even if I am hurt I will not be disheveled by it.

 Grow out of it.. ( I did sulk about it for a short while but then I decided to embrace it as it is)😝

 #foodtomytrentchedsoul#stupidme#sillythoughts

Break: from an unplanned situation😅

​What makes you happy?

What is your few minutes get away from a daily tight schedule.

I read an article regarding the same and the writer had explained each of her favourite get away leisurely and exhaustively.(atleast it was much more detailed so yeah I consider it exhaustive enough)

I was wondering what can be considered as my “kit-kat break”. It led me to ponder about the same for a while before I could decide certain habits of mine that provide solace to my sometimes going too much over the top kind of life.

The article provided some food to my thoughts while lasted for a long time.( Believe me thinking about a specific thing for a while is equivalent to investing alot of time into thinking which is tiring😜)

 So here I was thinking about the specific tasks that have to be undertaken by me to have a smooth day ahead of me when the start wasn’t so cool. Especially when it is related to me. My spontaneity makes me pay much more than what I bargained for. I react to it without thinking,make it worse and then cry about it. In the end I work out what I really need to do. So a person like me is in dire need of this get away ideas.

The first and foremost of it is I guess Ice cream. My all time favourite.Even if I m sad or things go haywire I feel that an ice cream can solve it. I love ice cream its the only thing that I have  proper sweet tooth for. It is the remedy for my heart aches that are generally caused due to my exam going not as planned, friends,internship or anything and everything.
Other than that I guess I can spend time with my pet, fluffy. He has grown along with me for the past 12 years. So, he knows when I am sad and whenever he feels I am sad he is there. Dogs are really humans best friend. He is an amazing companion especially during these moments.

Or I guess I can even go on a crazy binge watching session of any funny show or a romantic one(die hard romantic, my friend introduced me to anime world so those work for me as well😜). I usually watch thr whole series in a go or try my best to complete it asap. I even have a huge crush on the main lead and as always they never ever disappoint you.(since one of my criteria while watching them also stresses on the fact of them being Good looking. It is for most of the movies not all though😝)

Other than that i can even sketch or paint any painting that seems good or atleast try to paint it. (Even if my day sucked.i don’t know how but I get  this immense patience from out of nowhere specially when it is related to sketching. Not that am a professional but I feel am good enough)

Last but not the least I have the capability of  sleeping it off. 😂

I realised my few day makers. my first aid service in case of an unplanned unbelievable day.

So what do u think is your favourite activity when you are in need of a much needed break

III Days III Quotes Challenge #Day1

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Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!😀

NOMINATED AGAIN.. 😛

Deboleena is an amazing blogger and her creative skills just never stop impressing me. Deboleena Biswas is  <3. Check her out.

The kind soul who keeps me engaged every now and helps me be a part of  the blogging world(taking time from the college life..phew it was tiring) and always nominate me into writing things.

Semester came to an end and here I got a glimpse of hope when she tagged me again to be a part of yet again an amazing challenge. I hope you all like it and feel free to write about it. I have universally tagged you(if there is something like that):p

So the  III Quotes challenge. Here we go…… 😛

THE RULES( EVER CONSTANT NEED OF US HUMANS TO BE GOVERNED BY IT) :

  1. Three quote for three days.
  2. Three nominees each day (no repetition).
  3. Thank the person who nominated you.
  4. Inform the nominees.

The first quote for my first day is from a poem :

“If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss”

-IF by Robert Forst.

As per rules I now need to nominate 3 bloggers.

https://greenpeacewordpresscomblog.wordpress.com/

https://breathingpark.wordpress.com/

https://crosgear.wordpress.com/

This quote gives me a lot of courage and motivation. The whole poem is amazing. I suggest all of you must take some of your time out and read it. It gives you the desire to walk forward unnerved by whatever situation that you may face.

Here is the link: http://www.businessballs.com/ifpoemrudyardkipling.htm

For your convenience. Please read the poem. It is amazing ❤